What’s The First Thing You Say to Yourself in the Morning?

~ Julie de Rohan, eatonomy® ~ 19 Comments

The alarm clock goes off.

Your eyes flutter open.

Still drowsy from sleep, you turn over and glance up to see someone who looks remarkably like Senior Drill Instructor Gunnery Sergeant Hartman from “Full Metal Jacket” standing over your bed.

He stares down at you, face like stone, eyes cold and unblinking, as he barks:

“Rise and shine, scumbag! Today you will eat healthy food and nothing but healthy food! You will exercise for precisely one hour – I do not give a rat’s ass about your so-called tendinitis! You will complete everything on your extensive “to do” list! I do not care if you did not sleep well or think you might have a case of the sniffles! There will be no excuses and no complaining! You will comply with these orders because your ass is mine!”.

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How Do You Handle Setbacks?

~ Julie de Rohan, eatonomy® ~ 8 Comments

“It was going really well and now it’s not and I’m just so annoyed and angry with myself.”

This is something I hear a lot.

I understand.

You’ve been doing really well listening to your body about when you’re hungry, what you feel like eating and when you’ve had enough. You’ve been leaving food on your plate (something you thought you’d never do); you’ve turned down ice-cream because you didn’t feel like it (unheard of) and you ate just one brownie rather than devouring the whole batch (say whaaat?!).

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What Are You Waiting For?

~ Julie de Rohan, eatonomy® ~ 11 Comments

We can spend so much of our lives waiting.

Waiting for something to happen.
Waiting for things to get better.
Waiting for the ideal moment.

I know I did (and sometimes still do).

There was an awful lot of time between acknowledging to myself that I had a binge eating problem and healing my relationship with food.

Most of that time I spent waiting.

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How Can Fear Make Us Fat?

~ Julie de Rohan, eatonomy® ~ 16 Comments

Trigger warning: abuse, trauma.

Let’s say you’ve managed to heal your relationship with food and have found autonomy.

You’ve been eating in tune with your body for a while – you’re eating when you’re hungry, you’re eating exactly what you feel like, and you’re stopping when you’re satisfied. In addition, you’re getting better at acknowledging your feelings and you’re finding ways to meet your emotional needs directly. Now that you’re no longer overeating, you’re really beginning to work with your metabolism and, whaddaya know, you’re starting to lose some weight.

All good.

Or is it?

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Why Am I Doing This To Myself?

~ Julie de Rohan, eatonomy® ~ 11 Comments

Trigger warning: binge eating, abuse, trauma.

After I’d finished yet another secret binge.
After I’d made myself feel sick from the vast quantity of food I’d eaten.
After I’d told myself how weak and pathetic I was.
After I’d hated myself with utter conviction.

As I sat alone in physical and emotional pain, this is the question I would ask myself over and over again.

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What’s The Big Deal About Exercise?

~ Julie de Rohan, eatonomy® ~ 25 Comments

“I’m just one of those people who hates exercise”.

That’s what I used to say. And I believed it.

Man, did I hate exercise.

I felt angry (and guilty and ashamed) at the mention of the word and I’m worried you may stop reading for the very same reason, but I hope not.

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